i am bored and have no one to talk to
few days ago i started to feel bored with this group of friends of my major. i don’t know the reason behind this, but uh, i just can’t make up any reason to go there around them and chit-chat about things we surely don’t have in common (i mean, i was busy last month and not with them, what do you expect me to tell about?). but far behind my scrumptious brain, i miss them and long to be around them. though i have a slight chance of not to be bored, i like how i belong in my new group of friends. i can not be a hypocrite. this new one i met because of thic what-so-it-called committee is full of funny and weird people, and mostly, they are open to me. but somehow i wish that i can be inside of both groups. ugh i feel friendless.
when i’m in my ugliest or having bad hair days, he’ll still notice nothing but me, being in front of him, the girl he loves for her personality and her existence for him. that’s the guy i want to marry. the guy whom you’ll feel comfortable with when you’re eating and he’ll tell you if something slips on your teeth instead. he sees me as a company, a buddy, a partner-in-crime, a study mate, a girl to share foods with, and ultimately, a girl.
my love life has been going on like neverending roller coasters. how come finding such mr. right is a one major difficult thing to wait? why can’t he just poof in front of me?
i just got a compatible-yet-cool flash for my yashica earlier this noon. i’m so happy i could die. i also got to eat an eggplant today (which i have longed for days). super yayness.
also, my parents are in japan right now (jeeeeealousy~). and when they asked what i want from there, i answered: “a new camera, green tea kitkat, and haruki murakami books.” seems legit, ain’t it?
i thought my head has been doing fine. and then i started to take my meds again three weeks ago. i know if i take those medicines i will have these symptoms, like losing my hair bit by bit, blurred eyesight for few moments, tasteless tongue, and sudden headaches. i even have to drink this pills to stop queasiness from headaches so i don’t get to throw up. it sounds pretty scary i know. i don’t like this either. i don’t like it since i suffered this when i was 6. and i don’t want those MRIs, CT-scans, EEGs, EMGs, and what-so-ever anymore. i want to be in a normal body.
i’m in an urge of going to Kinokuniya and MUJI. i need to read this kenzaburo oe’s book, i have searched everywhere and i still can’t find it in bookstores (mostly they’re lack of japanese literature section). i also need to go to MUJI to buy a water-resistant case for film rolls and a decent umbrella (i broke my last two umbrellas and now i go everywhere crossing fingers not to rain). AH! i just remembered i need to save some money to cross-checked my wishlist. money, rain hard on me~
