i am bored and have no one to talk to
few days ago i started to feel bored with this group of friends of my major. i don’t know the reason behind this, but uh, i just can’t make up any reason to go there around them and chit-chat about things we surely don’t have in common (i mean, i was busy last month and not with them, what do you expect me to tell about?). but far behind my scrumptious brain, i miss them and long to be around them. though i have a slight chance of not to be bored, i like how i belong in my new group of friends. i can not be a hypocrite. this new one i met because of thic what-so-it-called committee is full of funny and weird people, and mostly, they are open to me. but somehow i wish that i can be inside of both groups. ugh i feel friendless.
my love life has been going on like neverending roller coasters. how come finding such mr. right is a one major difficult thing to wait? why can’t he just poof in front of me?
i just got a compatible-yet-cool flash for my yashica earlier this noon. i’m so happy i could die. i also got to eat an eggplant today (which i have longed for days). super yayness.
also, my parents are in japan right now (jeeeeealousy~). and when they asked what i want from there, i answered: “a new camera, green tea kitkat, and haruki murakami books.” seems legit, ain’t it?
i thought my head has been doing fine. and then i started to take my meds again three weeks ago. i know if i take those medicines i will have these symptoms, like losing my hair bit by bit, blurred eyesight for few moments, tasteless tongue, and sudden headaches. i even have to drink this pills to stop queasiness from headaches so i don’t get to throw up. it sounds pretty scary i know. i don’t like this either. i don’t like it since i suffered this when i was 6. and i don’t want those MRIs, CT-scans, EEGs, EMGs, and what-so-ever anymore. i want to be in a normal body.
i’m in an urge of going to Kinokuniya and MUJI. i need to read this kenzaburo oe’s book, i have searched everywhere and i still can’t find it in bookstores (mostly they’re lack of japanese literature section). i also need to go to MUJI to buy a water-resistant case for film rolls and a decent umbrella (i broke my last two umbrellas and now i go everywhere crossing fingers not to rain). AH! i just remembered i need to save some money to cross-checked my wishlist. money, rain hard on me~